One of the dilemmas presented to someone running a blog is that most of the old posts are lost as the weeks and months roll by. Also it’s very easy to forget that as well as your regular readers, who know you a lot if you’ve been blogging for years, you have new ones stopping by. Most of these readers are bloggers themselves, or rather that’s what happens here on C&T. Readers, both old and new, are the backbone of a blog. Without them, and your support, I would have stopped doing this ages ago. When I saw the assignment this morning in my inbox, I thought I wasn’t going to do that at all because for these past few weeks I have written some important personal stuff on here, and sounding repetitive was not worth the risk, or so I thought at the time. However chatting over coffee is something I look forward to when meeting friends, giving a little update using this format doesn’t sound too bad. Let’s see.
So if we were having coffee right now (how I wish) I would tell you that this morning I visited my mum. She is grieving over the death of my grandma. We both are but this is not about me. My heart breaks everytime I watch her cry, but today I realised that crying is good for her because it releases anxiety. It’s cathartic in many ways and my only wish right now is to see her happy. I know she misses her mom so much and luckily I still cannot imagine what that feels like. I am blessed to have such a beautiful lady, from the inside and out, as my mother. So over coffee, and her tea (she drinks tea by the gallon) everytime I visit I let her grieve. That’s what she needs, as well as someone to talk to. Grieving is such a complex thing, full of highs and lows, but I’m letting her go through the process. Losing someone you love, be it a family member or a very close friend, is hard. The last few days we spent in hospital with my grandma were so tough. We knew it was coming, but time never prepares you enough.
If we were having coffee right now, on a more positive note, I would tell you how much I’m enjoying Blogging Uni. I really can’t understand why I haven’t registered before. There are days when all I want to do is write and all is good. There are times when I find no words and that is so frustrating, but the beauty of the assignments is the fact that you don’t have to do them on the day. I am finding that taking the time to think is important. Not to mention the number of amazing and talented bloggers I’m ‘meeting’ along the way!
If we were having coffee right now I would tell you that I’m seriously thinking about starting to meditate. Meditate – as in just take some time during the day to close my eyes and just be. The guys over at Harvard say that a few minutes of mindful meditation helps with sleep problems. I’m willing to give this a go. Will let you know how I’m doing. I promise, I did cut down on my coffee intake.
If we were having coffee right now I’ll say it’s now your turn. How are you doing?
Before I stop here browse through my post about my favourite coffee place in Malta. You will not be disappointed.
(This is *not* a sponsored post.)